okay, woman . . . whew!
where to begin?!
for one, you must know, above all, that you are talented beyond words. your characters are feasible (despite, or possibly because of their stupidity), tangible, very real. i can feel every tick, every breath, every hesitation in their movements - truly amazing writing here and i commend you.
that being said, holy hell, these two are idiots!
Taylor is doing nothing but digging this hole deeper and deeper for herself. not only is she messing with her own emotions and torturing herself unnecessarily, she's doing precisely the same to Christian. the guy now thinks he's gay, for goodness' sake! for a man that may not be open to exposing himself to that lifestyle by even association, this shit must be incredibly hard, confusing, just a clusterfuck. and as for Taylor's intention to tell the truth, what on earth will she expect to come of it once it's out there? he won't trust her, won't trust himself afterwords. he's already been betrayed in his definition by his family, how in the world would he deal with having these conflicting feelings of affection and lust for a man when he's not gay, only to find out said man was truly a woman the entire time?!
i get why Taylor has backed herself into this corner. she thought she'd be in and out of this dude's life without much issue; pay him back for the damage to the car, pay him back for the money he gave the family. she doesn't feel indebted and he can go back to being worry-free (as far as money). everyone's happy. but the heart can be a mean son-of-a-bitch, can't it? and i also understand why she continues with the lie. b.c of how much she's invested, how scared she may be of her feelings, and, hell, it's hard as stone to tell the truth when people are comfortable with a lie.
i have a saying above my desk at work: Always be honest for the truth has an ugly way of showing itself.
damn, damn, damn, Taylor!!!
don't get me wrong: i still like her. love her character, even. she's a strong individual. stronger than most would give her credit for. she's protecting herself above all else and that's what makes her so realistic. too often are we exposed to characters that give in willy-nilly and the resluts of nothing short of a faerie tale. this is what makes this story so captivating and deliciously frustrating at the same time!
did i say i love this story? cuz if i haven't . . .
having said all that, Christian is a fucking idiot.
dude has got to be dumb as rocks not to see that Taylor is a woman. or at the very least, he's nowhere near as worldly as he thinks. i live in the New York area all my life, have barely left, and am able to tell a Drag from a Tranny to a Transgendered. c'mon, guy!!! but then again, dudes don't really study other dudes when they're around one another. it's not much of a question for a woman to observe people, whether it's the same sex or not. but for a man to do it, pride and reputation gets in the way.
dang it, woman! i done wrote a dissertation and the story's not even done!
i never do this, but this story is one of the best i've read in a very long time. you breathe such life into this scenario, into these characters that it's hard to deny the awesomeness of this.
keep going. do not stop, hesitate, or pause. brava, lady. brava.