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Summary:

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Jayden made the biggest mistake of his life when he let the love of his life slip through his fingers.  Could he make it right and start anew?  Tamaeya had been burned by Jayden once and had no intentions of being burnt a second time, but it seemed that the heart had it's own mind.



Table of Contents
Categories: Original Fiction
Characters: None
Classification: None
Genre: None
Story Status: None
Pairings: None
Warnings: Strong Sexual Content
Series: None
Chapters: 1
Completed:No
Word count: 4965
Read Count: 108483
Published: February 06 2013
Updated: April 19 2017


Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1 In The Beginning

While I agree that Tam should have kept her views among the adults, I can't be to hard on her about her suspicions of Jason and Nancy.  Up until Jayden's accident...in fact the very day of Jayden's accident they were plotting about ways to keep Tam and her 'bastard non-Winston' children out of their son's life.

They considered her not good enough, mostly because she is black; and they have had nothing but nasty things to say about her and the children from the start.  Now, because their son is in a coma, and with no time spent getting to know her or the children, they are all ready to accept them and welcome them all into their family?  I wouldn't buy that either.  And Tam 'giving them a chance' opens her children up to a world of potential hurt if Jayden's parents aren't sincere.  That's a huge risk for a mother to take on no evidence other than a couple of weak apologies when those apologies are being weighed against weeks, years of lived experience.  To Tam it has to seem as if they are just putting up a front to keep Jayden in their lives.

Jayden is correct when he says that what they have done, they did to him, but the things they did to him were the cause of him hurting Tam.  So I can understand why in her mind those actions don't seem so distant.

Could Tam rein in that anger a bit and try to be a little less bitter in her interactions?  Certainly.  But I can't find it in me to blame her for her fear and her resistence to the Jason/Nancy overtures given that it has only been a couple of month's since they were sincerely spouting a lot of hurtful, classist, racist views--and they have only stopped now because Jason doesn't want to alienate his son, and Nancy doesn't want to alienate her son or her husband.  Neither of these motivations indicate a true change of attitude/viewpoint.  They just show that the parents are willing to tone it down/keep it to themselves in order not to further damage their relationship with their son.

Reviewer: mcsgirl Signed
Date: April 30 2013

Title: Regret

I'm glad that Tam and Dana have come to an understanding, but I still think that both Jayden and the children (although with the kids it's understandable, they are just that--kids) are oversimplifying and misunderstanding Tam's standpoint.

Everytime they talk to her about Nancy, it's framed in the "don't be mad, you have to forgive her" argument, but they don't seem to hear Tam when she says that it's not really an anger issue, it's a trust issue.  And since Jayden doesn't really seem to want to acknowledge the racist/classist views his parent's held on to for DECADES--right up to his accident in fact--he's dismissive of her concerns.  Manipulating her into interacting with his parents while ignoring her very real, very legitimate fear for her children's emotional well-being is NOT 'standing up'.

I'm glad that Tam is letting the children talk to their grandparents if they want to, but I still don't see a problem with her not wanting to leave her children ALONE with them.  In fact their reaction at the restuarant to Dana's gift would give me (as a mother) a whole new area of worry concerning my children with their paternal grandparents.  Really...your first reaction is thinking about how she can become famous? Some kinda psychic 'fixer' to adults??  A 9-year-old child?!?!

Anyway, it looks as if Jayden's parents are going to be redeemed, but their abrupt about-face just comes across as superficial and convenient rather than indicating a real, fundamental change in their views.  I guess what bothers me is that in spite of their apologies, their motivation is not becoming better people, it's to keep the relationships they were afraid of losing.  Jason didn't want to lose his son; Nancy didn't want to lose her husband and Jayden didn't want to lose his parents and doesn't want to lose his family.

Nancy's introspection showed how she come to do/be what she did/was, but it did nothing to show why/how she suddenly changed her mind...other than the reason I mentioned above.  And Jason's 'explanation' of his behavior as 'indulging' his wife because he loved her seems even more insincere.  That's a whole lot of hatefulness, spite and maliciousness in the name of catering to your spouse.

It's good that Tam is making an effort so that she, Jayden and the children can have some peace, but again, I don't blame her for the mistrust.  I took lived experience to create it, and it's going to take more than an apology and a couple of dinners to dissipate it.  But she seems to be open to learning to trust them if they show themselves trustworthy.  And that is going to take time.



Author's Response:

thank you so much for your in depth review.  Tam told her children that she didn't trust nancy because of what she did to Jayden.  Jayden has focused on his own issues for so long that he doesn't know how to make things work with his parents.  Tam stayed the night but as she said, she has a lot to think about when she returns to Richmond.  She hoped for the easy way out, Jayden just cutting himself off from his parents, but she sees now thats not going to happen.    Yes, it's going to take more than a couple of dinners to win Tam over and yes she wants to protect Dana, but so does Jayden.  He doesn't want her exposed to a cruel world. While he still has a ways go go, Jayden has stood up to his parents which is something he hadn't done in the past.  Everything is not going to come together right away and you are right.  It is a process.  Thanks for the review.

Reviewer: mcsgirl Signed
Date: July 12 2013

Retired
Rated: 17 and older
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[Reviews - 572]
Summary:

Madison DuMont, English by birth but raised in New York, has returned to England to pursue her dream of being a top ballerina with her best friend and fellow dancer, Dante Palmer. After encountering the same racial issues with being a black ballerina in a predominantly white field she experienced in NY, Madison invests her inheritance in opening her own ballet company. A chance meeting with Matthew Bradley one night leads her down an unexpected path where she battles her personal perceptions of interracial relationships and whether they are worth it.



Table of Contents
Categories: Original Fiction
Characters: None
Classification: General
Genre: Romance
Story Status: Active
Pairings: None
Warnings: Adult Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 1
Completed:Yes
Word count: 26
Read Count: 118383
Published: May 11 2014
Updated: September 05 2014


Title: Lovers' Dance

Ok, I didn't like Cleo & Co before, but now...?

She has the audacity to go into some psuedo-protective mode about possible societal pressures/difficutlies when she has been the chief source and instigator of daily, personal slights, cuts and denigrations to her own niece for YEARS--beginning at a time when Madi was most vulnerable and continuing until the day before this conversation.  She accuses Matt '...you’ve come into her world and no one sees her. They paint her as some sort of gold-digging whore when she’s not', yet I don't think Cleo is including her own relatives (and satellites) in this 'they' she's talking about!

Madi, her niece, stood emotionally naked in front of her entire family and asked her blood relative if she was ever loved and got CRICKETS in response.  They've used her, downgraded her, insulted her and allowed, if not encouraged others to do the same and now Cleo and David want to act like all that was out of some 'misguided' but 'loving' attempt to keep her 'on the straight and narrow'?  Really? And here they are threatening Matt when he hasn't done anything even close to what they've done to Madi.  How messed up it is that she couldn't and still can't share her grief at the loss of her parents with her "family"? How messed up is it that the only time she feels of value to them is when she is giving them money or doing things for them--and that still only earns her grudging acknowledgement and accusations of feeling superior? How damaging is it that the people who should love her unconditionally constantly, in every way, remind you that not only is their 'love' conditional, it's a lesser love than what they freely give to others? How messed up is it they she's lived since childhood in the fear that one messup will lose her what 'family' she has left?

Cleo can take her '..we've hurt each other..' and '...I've made mistakes...' and their threats and along with a whole stadium of seats!.  If tshe and David ever do call Madi, they better come with more than some weak "I'm sorry" crap.  And they better fix the attitudes they've fostered/allowed in the rest of the family along with it.

As for Matt, I give him credit for trying.  He acknowledges his discomfort with discussing race issues, but he at least seems to be willing to address them when needed.  I also give him props for actually hearing Madi when she said that not everything is about him. Now, for all his demands that she see her family clearly, he needs to take off the rose-colored glasses when it comes to his own.  His mom and dad may treat him better, but they do not and probably will never accept Madi and he needs to recognize that and stop putting her in situations where they can insult and condescend to her.

Reviewer: mcsgirl Signed
Date: September 07 2014

Title: Lovers' Dance

I've already said it, but here again is why I don't like Cleo & Co.  Madi rightfully stood up for herself and told those posers in NY the truth, yet they've done such a job on her over the years that she feels like she needs to be forgiven; feels that she somehow betrayed them...and she STILL paid for her selfish, jealous, no-count cousin's schooling--as a sort of down-payment on that possible forgiveness.

Home was synonymous with family and I was now an outcast. I consoled myself with the fact it hadn’t even been a full week since the blow-out. Maybe Aunt Cleo would forgive me and call. I had sent Jenny that cheque, that had to give me some sort of edge.

The words traitor and ungrateful jumped before my eyes and my mind put them into the correct order. I felt like an ungrateful traitor.

And there is toxicity on the other side of the Atlantic too.  I know Matt hasn't been present for some of the things his parents have done, but now that he knows what they are capable of, I hope he will be more diligent about keeping them away from Madi.

He also needs to at least make an effort to value her work and the things that are important to her as much as he does his own business.  These two come from totally different backgrounds, socio-economic stratas and their chances of making it work are lower than normal because of it.  Add family pressure and their individual personal baggage and it's is going to be a struggle. It already is, but in spite of the odds, I think they can make it, but they are both going to have to exercise a LOT of trust as well as be willing and able to fight like the dickens for and with each other against the opposition.

As for Matt's parents, what kind of parent wants to inflict the same misery they are enduring on their child?  Even if she thinks Madi is completely wrong for her son, Matt's mother should at least recognize when her son is happy.  If Portia doesn't think the relationship is appropriate, if she is so sure that it's a phase, why not wait it out?  She acknowledges that her son is like his father; she heard her husband say that a man will do almost anything to have a woman look at him the way Madi looks at Matt, and she already knows Matt is willing to cut relations with them in defense of Madi, so why does she keep pushing and plotting in spite of her husband's advice?  I have to wonder if there isn't a little unconscious envy/jealousy involved.

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Portia Bradley was silently fuming. She hadn’t spoken one word on the trip from the restaurant to the hotel they were staying at tonight. Right now she wanted nothing more than to curl up in her own bed and lick her wounds. Matthew’s continued defence of his supposed girlfriend was mind boggling.

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Hannah was her pride, had married well and given them their beautiful granddaughters. She, like her brothers, had a brilliant mind. But like her mother, she had focused on her husband, her children; instead of furthering her career. That woman Matt was currently involved with didn’t seem the type to sacrifice her own needs for his.

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Portia exhaled in anger. What spell had that woman woven around her son? What was it about her that drew Matthew, a man so much like his philandering father, to her side? Why was he so infatuated with Madison DuMont?

Portia is apparantly still in love with her husband, but also intent on punishing him, not forgiving him, for some past sin--probably infidelity.  If she, a woman with all the advantages of beauty, birth, breeding, education and wealth, couldn't keep the interest of the man of her choice, in spite of giving up a possible career to support him and their family, it must burn her to see someone like Madi, with only the advantage of beauty and with a demanding career of her own, not only attaching, but in the face of all kinds of opposition, HOLDING the interest of her son--a man so much like the man she loves (and hates). I wonder if along with her conscious bigotry/superciliousness she subconsciously resents the further loss' that Madi represents.

Portia's life is her family and her social position (note how many times she describes something as 'embarassing') and part of that social position is dependent on how the world she lives in perceives her family and her place in it. So, she cannot/will not allow anything to 'tarnish' that perception and thus her own value.  Her husband is unfaithful but discreet, her father-in-law tolerates her, her friends pounce on any opportunity to gossip about her and now for the second time a son is defying her.

Makes me wonder if her near rabid resistance to Matt and Madi as a couple is just as much about Portia maintaining her place and her pride as it is about Madi not fitting into their world.

Reviewer: mcsgirl Signed
Date: September 07 2014

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